See this guy in the photo welll for almost three years he was my rock,my hero, the one that made me believe in love again. I have never had the best luck when it came to being in relationships and when it came to this one I am just glad GOD blessed me with the most patient man possible. I came into this relationship with a broken heart and spirit. My first relationship took everything out of me and broke me mentally!!! Jeremy came into my life and completely changed the way I moved,I spoke and the way I loved. I can truly and honestly say he changed me to be a better woman. I am a firm beliver in the Lord and I know he placed people in your life for a season and some a lifetime. I truly thank GOD for placing Jeremy in my life when he did. We had our ups and downs and he was there for me through it all as I was there for him. The relationship ended one year ago as of 9 days ago and which it what prompted me to write this post on my blog. During that relationship my fears of being hurt caused alot of strife and pain. I now look back on things and realize that there was so much that I could have done to be a better girlfriend,but I didn’t and that cause me to loose an amazing man. After that breakup we didn’t really talk and that really hurt me. There was a lot of hurt and anger that I had toward him when I first found out that he was dating someone else due to the fact I wasn’t in a position to accept the fact that he and I were truly over. After talking to him about the situation I am better, but you never forget the memories that you have shared with a person. I often think about what if and that’s going to happen,but when you are living in the past there is no way to move to the future. I guess this blog is just a sign sealed and deleiverd stamp that one year and 9 days later I am finally ready to move on!!!!! I will always have a special place in my heart for Jeremy he will always be BIG POPPA to me! Thank you Jeremy for teaching me what unconditional LOVE was again!!!
The Source Man Of The Year.. 2 Years Back To Back.
Sooo proud of him!!!!;-)
So the time has come for me Jas and Chassi to part ways!!! WAHHHH I never thought that leaving would be so hard I am beyond pruoud of my bestie and the fact that she has gotten a big girl job, but I am super sad that we have to live apart!!! For the past 5 years I have known taht at 6 or 6;30 I will hear the garage door opening and now that has all came to an end!!!1 I am super proud of my roomie and her new job!!!!!!:) This is all for now because I feel myself about to cry and get upset at the fact taht my bestie if moving about 4 hours away!!!!!:(
Nuppie( lol remeber when grandma called you that lol) As I lay here in the bed looking at various t.v shows trying to keep my mind of the fact that you are gone. December 4th 2011 will forever be a day that will remain etched in the hearts of this family. I can’t even begin to think about the healing process,but I know that God will NEVER place more on this family than we can bear. D.J I was just thinking about you the other day how you used to twirl the bottom of your teeshirt when you were lying!!! Remember when you set the porch on fire HAHA that was crazy!!!! Remeber that song we made up when you went through your
“bad” stage “He’s a liar he cuts wire leave him alone and he will start a fire he he he ha” Just sitting back looking at the memories man we had some fun as kids One memory that sticks out when we went to Florida and you said “Aunt Susie evertthing is free cause it don’t have a price” or when you would call thoes imfamous words that only you knew how to say “GRANDMMMMAAAA” LOL WOOOW we had some crazy fun times!!!!!! Words can’t express the hole that you left in the hearts of the entire family. I know we havent talked in a while ,but that year that you guys stayed with us was a trying one but like ALWAYS this family pulled together and made it!!! As the tears began to flow I know that you are looking down on us and smiling that BIG smile and getting to know PAPA and reuniting with Aunt Mae Lee!!! Tell PAPA that I hate I never got the chance to know him and tell Aunt Mae that I miss her dearly!!!! D.J this family is trying to put together all the pieces that are broken!!1 We love you more than you will ever know!!!!! Over time our hearts will heal and we will try our best to resume our lives!!!! I love you and rest in peace Darryl Coleman Carter Jr.